Continuing

I believe when I left last I was talking about someone new. His name was Ian. In the beginning Ian was amazing. He made me feel like I had never felt before...loved. At this point I didn't think there was any hope for me and Stanton. I loved him with all of my heart but basically he had told me that it was over. With that thought in the back of my mind I knew there was really no reason to wait around. The first time I met Ian I drove all the way to Illinois where he was working. I know what your thinking...she has lost her mind. And in a sense you would be right. I was hurt and that hurt was pushing me forward. When I pulled up outside of the hotel he was waiting. I had butterflies in my stomach because I was so nervous. He stood there and it wasn't awkward at all. It felt as if we had known each other our entire lives. I stepped outside of the vehicle and he picked me up and hugged me. Omg it felt so amazing being wrapped up in his arms. I can't even begin to describe the feeling I had. That night we talked and laughed, almost like we had been together for years. We had a connection that I can't honestly explain. From the very beginning I didn't want to leave. The next morning I woke up when he did and got ready to head back. He hugged me and said he wished I could stay but I knew I needed to go home. I hit the road. I had my radio going, and had my GPS leading the way. After about 45 minutes of driving I ended up right back where I started. I took it as a sign and told him I would stay another night. I waited all day and finally he was off work and back in the room. He got ready and took me to eat at this little Mexican place by the hotel. I remember thinking to myself...wow I can't believe your doing this. I couldn't help it because it felt so incredible and so right. The next morning we yep I said we, left Illinois taking him back to KY and me back home. The entire ride we listened to music, laughed, and cut up. The entire time I had a knot in the pit of my stomach. I don't know if it was because in reality I was doomed or if it was because I knew that I really liked this guy. I had ideas going through my head that I shouldn't have had. From jump street I kept thinking what it would be like to get married and have a baby. Crazy I know but that's what I kept thinking about. Could he be the one?